Am I a bad mom?

Am I a bad mom for wanting to go back to work already? For not embracing my mom bod? For wanting alone time only three months into motherhood? For wanting to keep the car door shut just a little bit longer when unloading myself from the car before I take my crying baby out? I feel like it is far too soon to be feeling like this. I feel like it's even too early to celebrate Mother's Day, like do I still earn that celebration this soon into my journey?

I've been really struggling with that lately. I feel like I shouldn't give my input when moms of children 1+ years old talk about being a mother. I do everything a mom does.. I change I feed, I play, I teach. I know, he's only 3 months.. how much attention does he really need. That's how I feel sometimes. Maybe I'm over dramatic. Maybe this is an easy job and I just make it hard. Is this PPD? I don't feel like I'm depressed. Maybe it's not something you notice yourself.

Is it bad that I hate my body and it's only been three months? I feel like I've had enough time to bounce back. I got the okay to work out what feels like a million years ago (8 weeks ago). I keep saying " breastfeeding makes me crave sweets though!", but I just love food. I need to stop.. but after eating that extra calorie, I just give up and "start over tomorrow". I tried working out yesterday. A whole 18 minutes! Hey, something is better than nothing, right? Today I was so sore that I couldn't do it again. This is how it always ends. I never get back to it. Am I being to hard on myself?

Is this self doubt thing ever going to get easier?